This has been one doozy of a week. We have all been really busy with something to do after each work day.
Collin and I were home on Tuesday because he was sick, so that has thrown me off.
Exhaustion has started to catch up with me from the ins and outs of each day. I do not sleep well these days and add in the occasional cat on my feet, charlie horse in my calf, or hip pain and it can be miserable. I am so thankful for the nights I do sleep well. Unfortunately sometimes this lack of good rest makes my days run together and feel so incredibly long.
I was just wishing away the days for the upcoming weekend last night (not that we’re too far away, but I just want it to be here at this point) when something incredible happened. I was on the couch watching Grey’s (my Thursday night vice. Its one of only two shows I stop and watch the night its on) when BB2 did the most amazing rolling, kicking, punching thing I’ve ever felt.
He’s laying way down low, across my belly – at least that is my best guess based on what his movements feel like. It hasn’t been easy to feel significant kicks up high because that just isn’t where he is. But yesterday the movement was so intense it made me pause. I had to stop and remember that I am going through this incredible experience and I haven’t been able to experience it at all. I have been counting the weeks, watching my belly grow, and talking about what is to come, but I haven’t been slowing down and allowing myself the time necessary to really enjoy being pregnant.
One thing I have learned, and was told, about your second and subsequent pregnancies is that you don’t get to just stop being mom to the first child. I mean, that is obvious, but when I think back to being pregnant with Collin and this pregnancy now they are so different. I do not have the luxury of putting my feet up and lounging out the couch every day after work. If there is something that needs to be done, like a load of Collin’s laundry, I cannot just push it off and pretend I’ll get to it later. Collin still needs my attention, and I need to be there for him. Its a hard balance to find and at this point we’re doing okay, but what I am having a hard time with is finding the space to appreciate this next little boy coming our way.
I need to embrace these moments because they too will go by way too fast.