I had a hard day yesterday. Collin had a friend over for the day, which was great for him, but hard for me. He wanted to be the boss. He wanted to tell his friend what to do, how to do it, and he was not sharing. I’ve never seen him like that – and I understand where it was coming from, we were at his house, but still… it was difficult. I found myself frustrated, even angry at times, because my baby boy has never been that way. Occasionally it will take some coaxing to get him to share something, especially if it is something extra cool, but usually it is never an issue. And the whole alpha-male thing? I have honestly never seen him act like that before. It was just so unusual.
In the heat of the moment I was focusing on those little things: the grabbing of the cars, the tone of his voice when something wasn’t going his way, the tantrum he threw when he didn’t get his way. It took 12 hours – it was just this morning – that I figured out that I missed out on the bigger picture that was yesterday.
Those two sweet boys had so much fun. I noticed all the things “wrong” but they didn’t even care. Why couldn’t I see it that way? Their laughter, their cooperation when things were going well (which, incidentally, was most of the time), the sound of their little feet hitting the floor while they were running around. I missed it all.
My mother stopped by yesterday afternoon with some goodies and diffused my sour mood. She is such an amazing woman – we are so blessed. She brought both boys a pair of sunglasses, balloons, bubbles and she even brought over a new inflatable pool for the backyard. Really. How cool is that? When she called to say she was stopping by I mentioned we were on our way out to play in the sprinkler, and she brought a pool. We were outside for hours, enjoying the sun, playing with bubbles and playing in the pool. What a great afternoon.
So, despite missing out on those moments as they happened yesterday, I can reflect and I just love what I hear. What I can only hope becomes the sound track of my summer – splashing, giggling, baseballs being hit, bells on bikes being run, little feet hitting the floor in a frenzy. Birds, leaves rustling in the breeze, the ice cream truck, and even fireworks set off by neighbors randomly throughout the season. Love.
What does your summer sound like?