I don’t think anyone can truly, fully understand and appreciate how fast time truly flies until given the chance to watch a child grow up before their eyes. Seriously. I mean, sure, we can feel days go by fast or drag incredibly slow (we’ve all had one of those days, right?!) but watching a child grow? There is no way to explain it. Especially during that first year when they grow more than they ever will at any other point of their lives.
Physically they grow so fast, they get so big, and you’ll buy clothes, shoes, onesies much more often than you think. Intellectually, though… well their intellectual growth will just blow you away. I am constantly flabbergasted by the things Collin does. The things he says, the things he does, and even just the way he does those things. He is a smart boy, that little one of mine. His gears are always turning and he is constantly just taking things in. He will sit and watch something and think about it until he’s got it and then boom, he can do whatever he puts his mind to. Its incredible.
I am constantly in awe of how fast time is flying by. How it has already been a year since we just dressed him up as a little lion cub for his first Halloween, how he is now running everywhere when I remember as clear as day that he had just taught himself to sit up on his own, how he took his first steps for his daddy and I one day while we were on the floor playing. The fact that he is growing and growing and growing is never forgotten around here, and the fact that I feel like he is growing too fast is not something I take lightly either.
Okay, maybe he’s not growing too fast in reality, but for my taste he certainly is. He’s my little boy, I want him to stay that way! Is that too much to ask for?!
Collin goes to an in-home daycare where he is with several other children who range in age from 14mo to 5 years. They all get along very well, we love our daycare provider, and Collin absolutely adores going there to learn and play. He is the oldest by one week of three little toddlers there yet he seems like he’s got years on them. He likes to sit with the older kids while they do preschool activities, he follows the older boys around playing with a ball, and he sits in a chair like a big boy during meals and snack. He is just growing too fast!
Today I picked him up to find out that for the last two days he’s been sleeping on the floor on a mat like the big kids for nap time. When he started at daycare he was in a crib, when he could stand he was moved to a pack n’ play, and now – per his own request (I guess he kept pointing at the big kids on the floor) – he is on a mat. When she told me this it brought me to tears! I don’t know what about this little thing it was, but for some reason it brought me straight to tears. How fast he is growing! How smart he is! Our daycare provider said yesterday when they tried it for the first time (even though she was skeptical they decided to give it a try) Collin tried to get up once and all she had to say was that it was time to lay down, and he laid back down and was out like a light!
These events, these reminders that time is flying by and he is getting smarter and growing so fast is just so amazing to me. It is so bittersweet but makes me so proud. It makes me excited and exasperated to think about how things are going to be in the future. I makes me fall in love with my little boy even more. I just wish I could have a slow down button or a pause button sometimes, because while I’m proud and in love and happy for him, I know I am going to miss these days so much in no time.