Yearly Archive: 2009

Goodbye 2009. Happy New Year!

Here we are – the end of 2009. Have you reflected? Was it a good year? We had ups and downs in this household, that’s for sure. It was certainly a year of growth – I can say that much. Literally, with Collin, and figuratively, with our strength as a family, our success through difficult times, and with our love for each other. Really, I cannot think of two other people I’d rather create memories with. I truly have an amazing son and an amazing husband.

I have been debating coming up with resolutions because I don’t want to let myself down again. I don’t know about you, but year after year I say the same things and continually give up on them. I am tired of doing that so I was thinking that if I don’t make resolutions, I can’t break them, right? Its true. However, I came to the conclusion that I do need to make resolutions because I am a goal-orientated person and I need somewhere to begin. I need to know where I came from to get where I am going.

This year I resolve to:
1. Make a lifestyle change. I don’t want to just say that I am going to lose weight. I need to eat better and do it all the time. I need to incorporate exercise into my life all the time. I can’t just say I’ll pop in a workout video when I have a few free moments, I need to make time to make it happen. I can’t focus on the scale, that isn’t what I am getting at – I am just interested in becoming healthier. For me, for my son, and for my family. I want to be comfortable with who I am and that means having these things be part of my daily routine.

2. Embrace photography and do something with it. I have invested quite a bit of money into this hobby of mine and I really need to make it pay off. I look forward to continuing to get better, taking a class or two, and even working on my editing skills. I love being behind the lens, but I also want to make sure I get more pictures in front of it.

3. Forget the small stuff. Well, I don’t want to forget the good small stuff, but those little irritations that sometimes can seem all-encompassing… I want to forget them. I want to stay on the straight and narrow, moving along as I see fit. I don’t want to worry about what he said and she said, or who is doing what. I want to enjoy this year as much as possible and create amazing memories and be positive.

There are certainly more things I wish for 2010, but these are three big ones. Number one is my main goal, we shall see where the others take me. Of course it is probably illegal to start a lifestyle change involving diet and exercise on a Friday, so my resolutions will take effect on Monday. ;-)

I hope you all have a wonderful and safe and happy New Year’s Eve. We will be celebrating twice. We will be at a wedding for the real deal (congrats Vanessa and Sean!), which I have become very excited for, then we are having a “New Years Take 2″ party at our home Saturday night. I can’t wait! Have fun ringing in 2010!

Goodbye 2009. Happy New Year!

Here we are – the end of 2009. Have you reflected? Was it a good year? We had ups and downs in this household, that’s for sure. It was certainly a year of growth – I can say that much. Literally, with Collin, and figuratively, with our strength as a family, our success through difficult times, and with our love for each other. Really, I cannot think of two other people I’d rather create memories with. I truly have an amazing son and an amazing husband.

I have been debating coming up with resolutions because I don’t want to let myself down again. I don’t know about you, but year after year I say the same things and continually give up on them. I am tired of doing that so I was thinking that if I don’t make resolutions, I can’t break them, right? Its true. However, I came to the conclusion that I do need to make resolutions because I am a goal-orientated person and I need somewhere to begin. I need to know where I came from to get where I am going.

This year I resolve to:
1. Make a lifestyle change. I don’t want to just say that I am going to lose weight. I need to eat better and do it all the time. I need to incorporate exercise into my life all the time. I can’t just say I’ll pop in a workout video when I have a few free moments, I need to make time to make it happen. I can’t focus on the scale, that isn’t what I am getting at – I am just interested in becoming healthier. For me, for my son, and for my family. I want to be comfortable with who I am and that means having these things be part of my daily routine.

2. Embrace photography and do something with it. I have invested quite a bit of money into this hobby of mine and I really need to make it pay off. I look forward to continuing to get better, taking a class or two, and even working on my editing skills. I love being behind the lens, but I also want to make sure I get more pictures in front of it.

3. Forget the small stuff. Well, I don’t want to forget the good small stuff, but those little irritations that sometimes can seem all-encompassing… I want to forget them. I want to stay on the straight and narrow, moving along as I see fit. I don’t want to worry about what he said and she said, or who is doing what. I want to enjoy this year as much as possible and create amazing memories and be positive.

There are certainly more things I wish for 2010, but these are three big ones. Number one is my main goal, we shall see where the others take me. Of course it is probably illegal to start a lifestyle change involving diet and exercise on a Friday, so my resolutions will take effect on Monday. ;-)

I hope you all have a wonderful and safe and happy New Year’s Eve. We will be celebrating twice. We will be at a wedding for the real deal (congrats Vanessa and Sean!), which I have become very excited for, then we are having a “New Years Take 2″ party at our home Saturday night. I can’t wait! Have fun ringing in 2010!

Disappoint.

Disappoint: : to fail to meet the expectation or hope of

I am not a fan of the word disappoint. I do not like to be disappointed and I sure as heck do not like cause disappointment. I remember as a child being able to deal very well with my emotions if I did something to make my parents mad at me, but as soon as they said this word, that they were disappointed, well it was all over for me. I felt horrible. They didn’t say that to make me feel horrible, I did that to myself. I did not want to be disappointing. Ever.

This time of year is always busy for us. In a short period of time we try to squeeze a lot of things in, from visiting with friends who are on vacation, to going places with family, to having holiday parties and doing things as just our little family. The holiday rush, apparently, has gotten the best of me this year. And because of this I am afraid of that word: disappoint.

The hustle and bustle has defeated me and I’ve double booked, over worked, and stuffed our schedule full. Trying to keep our days special means other things have gone by the wayside: cleaning the house, preparing amazing meals (okay… maybe this one never happened.), grocery shopping, laundry, my mind. I have lost track of time and am solely at fault for canceling a trip we were supposed to go on with some family tomorrow, and all I can say is that I’m sorry because I feel like I’ve let people down, and worse, disappointed them. This, of course, leads to a feeling of disappointment in myself, and now I can’t stop thinking about it.

Ugh.

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