I am sitting here, at home, enjoying a very quiet New Years Eve by myself. My littlest is fast asleep in his crib, not lasting much past 7:30 despite my efforts to continue playing and entertaining him. My biggest is out with his father at a local hockey game. There they will watch the game then celebrate NYE with some indoor fireworks. I find the whole thing very fitting. Solitude. Quiet. Me, myself and I. Usually we have a whole group of friends over, but everyone had other plans this year. It works, this alone time. I’m drawn to write, to get down some thoughts about the last year, and I figured that despite not updating this blog since April, maybe there is no better time to be alone with my thoughts and start Laugh Until You Cry up again.
2014 was….. interesting. It hasn’t been bad, but its been challenging. I’ve been working, doing photography part time, taking classes towards a masters degree, and raising the boys and maintaining my home. The year started off great. I had high hopes for success in my classes, I was enjoying my job, and my friendships and home life were great. Eventually, though, things started changing bit by bit. By summer I was stressed out about the state of my position, as I had found out I was being moved to a different school. I was also in the throes of classes and about to start a term that was going to be consuming a lot of my time since I was taking 3 courses instead of two as I had previously been taking. As the new school year started in August I felt nothing but lost in all facets of life, really.
We had some fun over the summer, most memorably a week long trip to the beach with the family. We also planned a Disney vacation for November. It was great to have these things to look forward to. I did really, really well in my classes and am now in the middle of an internship that will end Feb. 1. I’m excited to see where my new certification and qualifications take me. Since finishing my classes in November I’ve really been getting into running and am thrilled to have some new friendships there. It was so, so hard to go through what was easily the most difficult season of my life and feel so isolated. Running has brought me some peace and I also cannot wait to see where that brings me. I’ve got some big goals (half marathon, hello!) and am just so excited to reach them.
My boys are doing great. The baby, who is almost 2, has grown so much. He’s had a vocabulary explosion recently and talks up a storm now, saying everything from please and thank you, to excuse you, to play, Mama, play! I just adore this age and wish I could bottle it up. It is amazing to watch your children grow – especially when so much change is happening. Collin continues to amaze me, but has also brought some new challenges.This school year started off great and continues to go well, but at home we are struggling. He keeps us on our toes, to say the least. It will get better!
I’m slowly accepting everything that has happened this year. I’ve been inspired, frustrated, successful, stressed, lonely, proud, excited, exhausted, and so much more. I do feel confident that 2015 will be a positive year full of triumphs. I am only looking up from here – optimistic that this quiet solitude I am enjoying tonight is just leading me into what will become an exciting, fun, happy year.
Happy New Year!